First of all I thought, “Should I choose someone famous?” But no-one really sprang to mind as someone I admire above others. So then I started thinking about someone closer to me, a friend or family member. I didn’t have to think for very long. The answer was staring me right in the face.
Hands down, the person that I ultimately truly admire is my husband. I know it’s a cliché and you probably think it a bit of a cop-out, but it’s true.
I wrote a long WordPress post about my miscarriage in 2013. We lost identical twins. In my post I talk about my husband and how he was there for me at that time.
No amount of words can describe how I feel about him now that we have been through that together. I always loved him, right from the start, but something changed. I saw him in a completely different way. My love for him changed. What I feel for him now is far deeper than love. Up until then we were ticking along nicely in our little relationship together. We had not faced anything like this before, nothing had really tested us as a couple.
I had no idea how something like this would affect me, until it happened. The only word I have ever used to describe how I felt was broken. I was completely broken and I was unable to fix myself. For a long time it felt like everyone else had moved on around me and the world had kept on spinning while I just stood still. Everyone else got on with their lives. Everyone else but him. He stayed with me, he stayed right by my side, patiently waiting for me to catch up.
He was hurting too, but he selflessly put his own feelings aside and looked after me. He understood that I had the physical side of things to deal with as well as the emotional side. He understood that this happened to my body, and that what needed to happen next would happen to my body and that is was my body that would feel the after effects.
My husband always said that he would only ever get married once. It was a big deal to both of us to make that commitment to each other, and he has more than held up his end of the bargain. I know he will always be there for me and for our children. When things get tough, he won’t just walk away, and he will stand by my side and face them with me. When I need his advice, I know he will be honest with me. When I need his love, I know he will be gentle with me. When I’m over thinking I know he will rationalise my thoughts, with one sentence. He is the calm in my storm, he is my clarity and my constant.
So there you have it. The person I admire above all others and why.
Thank you for reading my soppy love story! X